NicoleRwnickyuhoLim ♥

Yet more musings, though not original

2011-06-08T10:47:00.001-07:00

if you were able to turn back time, would you?

(from lyrics)

we know, but we're not certain

how can we be?

how can we see what's ahead?

the road keeps on turning, and all we can do,

TRAVEL EACH DAY TO THE NEXT.

gone are the days of summer,

WE COULDN'T CHANGE IT IF WE TRIED

BUT WHY WOULD WE WANT TO?

IT'S NEVER THE SAME

TOMORROW.

AND TOMORROW'S NEVER CLEAR.

awfully wonderful lyrics...♥

마음으로..

2011-06-08T10:29:00.001-07:00

생일 축하합니다.

좀 늦겠지만, 넌 이것 보지않을게지만, 저는 널 몰라지만, 이것 내 진심입니다.

ㅠㅠ. ㅎㅎ. ㅋㅋ. 미쳤나봐

2011-06-08T10:14:00.000-07:00

보면 볼수록, 못참아.

보면 볼수록, 가슴 아파.

버보야

2011-06-06T09:18:00.000-07:00

울면 안돼.

2011-06-06T09:12:00.000-07:00

어려도 아픈 건 똑같아.

what if you have given your heart away but haven't received one in return?

does that leaves your chest with an empty cavity?

♥ -musings of mine, Nicole. Camilla. Lim.

2011-05-27T08:12:00.000-07:00

The Same Cycle

2011-04-13T07:35:00.000-07:00

Its UB2 already.
Tomorrow is History, and have I studied anything at all??
NO. I hate myself.. This is a cycle that keeps repeating itself.
I procrastinate right down to the last second and then regret and get stressed up.
Thing is, I deserve this. I deserve to feel like crap.
Because I am, nothing but crap.

To you,
To us,
Just look up ahead. ♥

What lies ahead..

2011-02-18T19:58:00.000-08:00

So.. what next?
What happens after SPM?
What happens to us?
What happens to our lives?
To our friendship. To our adulthood.

ㅠ.ㅠ

Over enthusiastic

2011-02-15T05:44:00.000-08:00

Okay,

So i'm aware I've been updating an awful lot today.
But I just have SO many things to say! I've been inactive for like,, MONTHS.
SO many things have happened.. I can blog ALL day.

Memories in Korea C=
Thanks to my uber cool uncle(mentioned in the previous post), my dream of travelling to Korea happened A LOT sooner than I'd expected. I would never have dreamt, even in my wildest dream, that
I would have the chance to travel to Korea. But it happened. And all I can say is.. THANK YOU GOD. I love you.

I went only with my aunt and her husband(the AWESOME uncle).. No one else. Isn't that double the awesomeness?? I would've loved to go with my own family, of course..But going there without them allowed me to experience the freedom if i were to go to Korea for my studies..

It was sooo cool..I met so many awesome people. Most memorable was the photographer..
So my aunt and I were in Dongdaemun underground market when we noticed this tiny little studio.
It had a sign outside saying that we could get 2 4R-sized pictures in Hanboks for 30,000 won, original price being 50,000. We decided it was still too expensive so we were about to move on when a tall man suddenly came out from behind the door and started his pitch. Somehow, I managed to reply to him in Korean. So my aunt and I went into the tiny little studio and we started chatting. He said, since he likes me, he'll give me 3 4R-sized pictures instead of just 2. So we continued to chat and he said, he'll give me 3 and my aunt 2 pictures for 50,000 won. Although this may sound like I'm an arrogant ass, he actually complimented my Korean, pronounciation.. etc etc. We were chatting like old buddies. And though I now wonder how, I managed to bring the price to 40,000. 3 4R-sized pictures EACH. Yepp, 3 for me and 3 for my aunt. And after 30 minutes, when we went back to collect our pictures, he asked me what is my fav Korean food. So i told him i love Bibimpap. He started telling me about where I could get good bibimpap when he suddenly stopped and asked, 'Have you eaten?' So i said 'not yet...' And... He locked his studio and brought my aunt and I for a meal together!!!

He wasn't the only one who complimented me on my Korean. =P. So you think(and I think, too), Hey, that person's just trying to sell his product. He'll tell you anything you like to hear.
But but but..an old grandmother complimented me too. on my pronunciation too!
That meant a lot to me, because an elderly said that. 감사합니다, 할머니!!!!!
=D

Hello.. how was your valentine's?

2011-02-15T05:20:00.000-08:00

HEHE.

Yesterday was valentine's..
In school, we got our dedications.
I knew earlier that Heng Sheng was going to send me one..
I kinda expected that no one else was going to send me one.
So when I got HSheng's dedication, it was like.. a relief.
Because at least there was something waiting on my desk, waiting for me.
If Hs had not send it to me, I would've been lollipop-less
and though no one would ever admit it, being lollipop-less is kinda..sad.

And then at night we had our reunion dinner at Tai Thong.
My uncles joked about me not receiving a Valentine's.
And then Alex said he'll go get me one. So my other uncle joined in the joke.
OR so i thought.
Coz turns out Alex was quite serious.
He went to the bar below Tai Thong after dinner to ask for flowers.
At first the manager said the flower seller has not arrived..
so we were leaving when suddenly..
BAM the flower seller arrived.

wonderful timing

My uncle then proceeded to buy the flowers. For ME.
It wasn't cheap for a 'joke'..And then he made my other uncle pay the other half.
I think my other uncle was kinda shocked/reluctant to pay because he also thought it was a joke.
HAHAHAHA.
So anyway, thats how I got my flowers.

And it got me thinking...it IS true. Getting a valentine's on valentine's make a difference.
A big difference. Because although those flowers were from my uncle, not lover,
It still made me feel loved. And cared for.
Anyways, he is THE BEST UNCLE EVER. Though i'll NEVER tell that to him. Teehee.

so technically, yesterday I got a grand total of...drum rolls please...
TWO valentine's gifts. Neither which are from an admirer or boyfriend.
And although I can never tell it straight to their faces,
I love them for it. =]

Eyes opened..

2011-02-15T05:09:00.000-08:00

Liking him has changed my perspective on a lot of things.
I used to be..KOREA KOREA KOREA.

Now.. I'm starting to embrace the Chinese in me. =)
I still love Korea and Korea is still my dream, but I'm more rational now..
I now want to learn Korean and Mandarin.. The two sides of me. C=

I don't want to be a banana no more.. I want to come out of my peel and be the Chinese that I am.
I'm pretty much.. 50% Chinese 50% Korean ??
It feels like that now..and I'm relieved.
I've finally struck a balance between my heritage and my passion. =D

A bit...

2011-02-15T00:23:00.000-08:00

SAKAI
=)

♥

Music

2011-02-15T00:15:00.000-08:00

I have completely lost interest in Kpop mainstream..

I only listen to OST nowadays.. So fed up of people trying to get money out of the power of Hallyu.
All those posters and kpop 'products'...Are they even legal??
Anyways, I've been meaning to list songs that I NEVER get tired of. Like EVER.

Teehee.

SO far...There's only
Built to last by Melee

專屬天使 by Tank

and..For Korean songs..
quite a number. So i'm not gonna write it down now.

Cheese tarts and all things nice

2010-08-23T05:51:00.000-07:00

Its been a long time since I posted a real post.

TeeHee.

So I finally got the final book for Meg Cabot's airhead trilogy, Runaway.

And I just ate a total of 5 cheese tarts. [addicted to cheese, especially in tart form]

Ahhh Lovely..

Confession

2010-08-21T23:59:00.001-07:00

Beautiful song. =]

MUST WATCH

2010-07-08T06:13:00.000-07:00

B.song No.1

2010-07-08T06:09:00.000-07:00

Beautiful song..

No other..

2010-07-07T06:05:00.000-07:00

Age is only a number =]

Lucifer

2010-06-17T20:57:00.000-07:00

One of the most intriguing drama I have ever watched. It makes you think about life and loads of other stuffs. This drama is seriously the bomb. Yesterday I watched the final episode and became a human waterfall. VERY recommended. Not to mention the lead is seriously hot.

Jerry- I Love You MV

2010-06-15T23:43:00.000-07:00

yeh now what’s out boy u come visit me
너무 사랑해서 날 떠나보낸다던 좋은 사람만나 행복 하라하던 너
미안하다 ..미안하다..미안하다..미안하다고..
내게 돌아와서 왜 사랑한다 말하니 u know me i’m wating for u
참아 보려했지만 그게 잘 안되는걸 어떻하니 애써 눈물이 보이려했지만
그게 차마 떨어지지가 않아 너에게 그런 모습들은
약속한다..약속한다..약속한다..약속 한다
있는 그대로 널 바라봐줄게
every day every night 항상 곁에 있어서 언제나 같은길을 걸어주어서
다신 울리지 않아 맘이 너무나 아파 이제눈물은 그만,..
- 보여주고싶진 않지만 너의 얼굴을 보면 내심장이 정말 터질것같은 마음을 넌 이제서야알겠니
사랑한다..사랑한다..사랑한다..사랑한다..
- no no 너에게 사랑한단말을 하고 싶지만 차마 내입에서 떨어지지가 않아
every day every night 항상 곁에 있어서 언제나 같은길을 걸어주어서
다신 울리지않아 맘이 너무나 아파 이제눈물은 그만,..
내가더 잘할게 아껴만줄게 영원히…
- im gonna tell u how i feel i cry for u i bagg for u
이렇게 아름다운세상 안에서 너랑나랑 만나서 사랑하게 되어서 정말 정말 다행이야
- every day every night 항상 곁에 있어서 언제나 같은 길을 걸어 주어서
자랑 하고픈 말하고픈 남자가 될게 니가 웃을수 있게…

Daesung - Cotton Candy (솜사탕)

2010-06-15T22:47:00.000-07:00

This isn't a new song, but its still a very good song. Try it, =]

Music-cont

2010-06-15T01:20:00.000-07:00

My playlist is missing a few songs because I couldn't find the songs on youtube. =[
But actually, who'd actually listen to it? Hahaha

Introducing my current addiction, INFINITE (인피니트) !

Aren't they awesome???

Music~

2010-06-13T22:59:00.000-07:00

I've finally decided to update.
I'm so embarrassed by my previous post!
Can someone please tell me how to make them not show without deleting the blog?

Lol.

I love music. The essence of it. Wanna know what I love most about music? Music's ability to change how you feel. Music is like magic. Nobody and nothing can affect the human's emotion as well as music can. Which is why I decided to change my blog's playlist. It consists of a few songs that will give you a roller coaster of emotions. Especially if you listen with earphones. So please, leave my blog page open as you explore the web and enjoy the ride! xD. Hope you'll like my taste.

Att

2010-04-05T00:03:00.000-07:00

People(me included..i'm working on it) should stop talking and thinking bad of others just by listening to rumors. Its not fair and most probably not true. You wouldn't want that to happen to you rite? Don't label someone as playboy/girl or cheap or whatever just coz they're being the teenager they are. Most of the people who are called that don't deserve it. Stop judging others altogether. Accept them as they are. Do you know how many people get hurt by your words? What makes you any better than them.. or worse? We're all the same. Just live life without judging. Please?

My ipod

2010-04-04T22:46:00.000-07:00

A letter to my dearest ipod..

I received a phone call one day when I was in Nicole Tan's house. It was my mom. She told me that she had gotten me an ipod. The latest one at that time. Ipod Nano 4th Generation. I, who then had never owned a mp3 much less an ipod was pleasantly surprised. The fact that they had gotten me the orange colour which i didn't used to like didn't really bother me because they got me the 16gig one.

I bought you five jackets. Yellow, black, transparent, blue and pink. But i never let you change out of the yellow one because it suits you the most. Many people thought that you were yellow, not orange. On the rare occasions that i removed your jacket, people would think I got a new ipod.

I slowly grew accustomed to your colour. I wanna see you again, orange. I'm sorry that I left you in my pinafore. Your death was so untimely. So sudden. I miss you.

My uncle suggested me getting a sony-brand mp4 player this time. To replace you. But i miss you. I want YOU. Not some mp4 player. So please.. wake up!

Please?

signed with kisses,
Your owner.

Luck?

2010-04-04T07:59:00.000-07:00

Its official. My ipod's a goner. I'll probably get one new one when the price is right. But i'll keep this playlist as a memory to my first ipod. It has served me well. .

And I'm ill again. The doctor said he wants me to go for a chest x-ray. O.O.
NO WAY am i going for one. NO NO NO!

Went to a nutritionist. She reads people's iris.. They call it iridology or smtg like that. She said i have a deep vitality line. Which means i'm not happy with what i'm doing now in my life. Which basically means i don't really like my life?? I do like it. I just wanna spend it in Korea. Is that why I'm unhappy? I think so.. Lol. I think its quite unusual for young people to have this vitality line thingy. My ENTIRE family went and only me and one of my aunt has this vitality line thingy. She has it coz she's been living with her in-laws since she got married. So that's quite expect-able. But what would make me, a 16 year old so unhappy about my life? I'm not one to emo about stuffs. So why? Am i really that serious about going to Korea or is it another reason altogether?

2010-04-01T07:51:00.000-07:00

I still haven't washed the pants and vest that I wore to Super Show 2. Some may think of me as unhygienic but fellow suju fans, ELFs, you know what its like. ;]

고마워요..

2010-03-29T05:34:00.000-07:00

Thanks for staying by my side.
You know who you people are. =]

고맙다 <3

Who gives a damn about titles?

2010-03-29T05:23:00.000-07:00

I don't need teenage crap.

I hate hormones. =X

New-found interest in blogging

2010-03-28T05:45:00.000-07:00

I have so many short sentences to say. I thought of updating them in fb but i didn't wanna be known as an loa person and i was thinking..if only i had my own space to put everything i really feel. And it struck me- my blog! So now I'm gonna slowly revamp my blog to make it my own personal space. My own personal diary.

Don't get too excited though. I have no secrets. Really. No crushes or stuffs like that whatsoever.
I only want to create a personal space of emotions.

Ok trust me. I love Super Junior like anything. I cried during the concert and jumped on my chair to get them to notice me. But my music playlist has only a couple of their songs. Its NOT coz i'm losing interest or anything. Its coz i've decided to put music that really really connects to my feeling. SuJu is already in my heart. I don't need to create another space for them in my blog. They're safe in my heart. <3

So fellow elfs, please understand that. =]

I am also beginning to hope that more people will read my blog. I never felt this way before... so.. Woohoo! Hwaiting!

Ps-Yiruma, an incredible Korean (not Japanese!!), is actually also good looking! Check his
web out. www.yiruma.com

Music

2010-03-28T04:23:00.000-07:00

I heart musicians. And thats why i cry when watching glee. Not coz i'm an emo. I'm just overwhelmed by the music.

SS 2

2010-03-19T06:14:00.000-07:00

isn't it beautiful? =')

I hate it

2010-02-27T00:38:00.000-08:00

I hate that I'm not a Korean
That I wasn't born one
That I can never talk like one no matter how much I study their language
That I can never participate in their culture AS a Korean
AND that I can't go for audition easily as I could have if I were in Korea

I hate that my computer is in my parent's room.
You know what that means?
The only time I ever get to go online is during the morning and afternoon.
And who is even online then?

I hate that I haven't seen him in 3 weeks
And that i'll have to wait another week
All coz I'm sick(still am, as i'm typing this) and he went missing

I hate that even though I haven't ate anything in 4 days,
I still haven't lost any weight.
WHY??
Lol sue ann how do you do it??

Updates..

2010-02-20T09:45:00.000-08:00

Me bacckk!!

Lols.. My mouse died few days ago and so i had to navigate the computer without a mouse.

I'll bet you you don't know how to do that! Hehe xD
No googling now!

Neways..got my dad to buy me a new one so here me are!

Few updates on my life-

1. I LOVE Percy Jackson. Took me 4 days and a half to finish all 5 books. AWESOME.
I may even like it as much as harry potter. But maybe not.. Harry Potter is a
i-wanna-read-it-again-and-again kind of book but Percy Jackson.. Not so sure yet.
Too soon to tell. But whatever it is, the movie totally does not do the book

JUSTICE.

Except for the guy they got to act as Percy.
SMOKING HOT.

2. CNY Gambling! My first time was the day b4 yesterday and i did NOT get any
beginner's luck. At ALL. >.<. I lost horribly.. Even yesterday in my open
house I did not get any luck. And today in Rou Zyn's i lost yet AGAIN.

3. Went to jenjarom with Nic T, Wei Wen and Teck Liang. HAd the most awesomest time

EVER.

Will tell more of this trip some other time since mom is chasing me off the comp.

4. My Open House.

Thanks to everybody who attended. ^^. Hope you enjoyed it.

Hmm..I think thts about it.
Anyong!!

Ps- Ryeowook so cute!!
PPs- yeah i know its random but... Ryeowook so cuuteeee!

Korea Once More =D

2010-02-04T07:41:00.000-08:00

Facts that you should know about me xD

I first fell in love with Tei. He's a ballad singer and not very popular but he's the reason I fell in love with Korea. Through him I saw the beauty of the Korean culture and people.

People always tell me.. Koreans are very rude.
Well they're deaf.
Koreans, happen to be Vair polite.
I've been trying to learn Korean by myself. Its hard because of their politeness.
Japanese being polite??
My foot and butt.
I don't hate Japanese, i quite like them but to me, their guys are a bunch of sexist people. And.. their not that polite. In language I mean. Sure, they bow and stuffs but so do Koreans!!

Ok anyway.. Because of Tei, I started watching Kbs world where I learnt so much about the people in Korea. Comedy is top top in Korea. And everyone is just so nice.
I Just LOVE Korea. Ok? DOn't know why I do but I do.

I know most people like Korea because of Kpop.

Honestly, I didn't check out their music(except Tei) and dramas till a few months(ok mayb weeks) after I fell in love with Korea.
And now.. I love Super Junior.
So so so so so so so MUCH.

So why am i not that very sad I can't go to their ss?
Simple..
Cause I'm delusional. And in my delusional mind, I kinda see myself in Korea after college or even during. And THEN i'll audition in SM and meet Suju! So very VERY delusional but whatever. Its keeping me happy. =]

Ps-Kinda hate netizens though. Why can't they leave my Kyu alone! My SUju!! Or even Jae Bom coz even though I'm not really a fan, I really really side Jay on this one. Netizens, get a life!

Personal..

2010-02-03T03:53:00.000-08:00

There's SOoooo many things I wish I could say
But I won't say it here today
My blog unfortunately,
I cannot confide in.

Misery.

2010-01-29T20:05:00.001-08:00

Sigh..
Super Junior. =(((((((
Can't go... TTT.TTT

At least we won't get the Dave effect, Nic T

Gotta control my feelings too. I know it won't lead to anything. Just checked out his ex's profile. Can see why he liked her. Like Taylor's Swift( omg can't believe i'm relating to hewr song! Hate her!) song, she's got everything that I have to live without? Oh and.. Its pretty weird but I really find a stranger intriguing. Like SUPER. I even had a dream bout him yesterday. He's not really a stranger. He's someone from school but not my year. I'm not attracted or anything. Just find him really intriguing. Like a new specimen. Weird much, i know. I'm getting super weird lately.

CNY CLOTHES

2010-01-24T07:56:00.000-08:00

9 Pants, 5 Shirts, 3 tanks, 1 Hoodie, 2 Cardigen (actually 3 but i wore one today so now 2), 1 Blouse and 2 Dresses. And i think i missed out smtg. My goodness weyh.. SO MANYY.. XD

Breads and Cakes

2010-01-16T01:42:00.000-08:00

Lol.. Exhausted. We did our first PBSM perjumpaan today.. Shouted a lot. I especially feel sorry for Tiong Wee and Wei Wen. We definitely need to get one of those microphones stuffs. Now I'm worrying bout whether as many people will attend our next perjumpaan. They might have found it boring. Well it wasn't our fault. There were too many people and it was so hard to control the crowd. Our next perjumpaan won't be like this, i'm giving you my word for that. Since we already divided all the members into groups, it'll be easier the next time round so hopefully they'll come..

2010-01-01T23:01:00.000-08:00

Jier Jier Jier..

My posters just won't stay on the walls!!!!

Stupid double sided tape. U destroyed my walls and threw my suju posters on the ground. U deserve to die die DIE!!

2010-01-01T05:57:00.000-08:00

New Year! =]

A fresh start for everyone. Lol.

I have so far, a few resolutions that i fully intend to keep. Simply because I'm forced to.

Resolution number 1.

Is to memorize every single social stuffs. I'm the ketua seksyen of social for year '09! Lol.. I MUST learn every single social and MUST overcome the fear of shouting 'Tepuk Bulan Sabit' and noone claps.

Resolution number 2.

As a 'socialite', I MUST attend every single camp and because my parents are so strict, the only way i can persuade them to let me go is to show VERY good results during tests and exams. Therefore, this year i MUST study vair hard and show them I am totally capable of taking care of myself.

Resolution number 3.

I will fully utilize my wardrobe. I will not wear the same thing over and over again and will make sure that every single piece of clothing(except special occasion dresses..etc) is worn at least once in 6 months.

Resolution number 4.

Now this is one I don't think I can keep but I will at least try. I MUST lose weight. And gain more confidence even if I gained more weight as opposed to my goal of losing it.

Resolution number 5.

Finally.. I MUST not spend so much money!! Or at least my parent's money.

Ok.. i think thats about it.
Here's to hoping we'll all keep our resolutions.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
LOL

2009-12-20T02:46:00.000-08:00

"Oh~ Krusty Krab oh~ Krusty Krab
Oh how I love you Krusty Krab!"

The new episodes of Spongebob is so funny. But I didn't really watch.. Was just listening to it while onlining.

Sigh.. 어떡하죠?????

당신이 날 좋아는지 알아요..하지만 난 널 안좋아하는 같아요

2009-12-15T18:21:00.000-08:00

Seeing this brings tears to my eyes.

But my favourite piece is by the Vienna Boys Choir..

I am way into classical as you can tell from my blog's song(if u let it play or if it even loads..It never loads whenever I'm viewing my own blog). LOL..

And I also kinda prefer guys that are musically inclined. Which is why i LOVE Ryeowook.. I mean thats not the reason.. But thats one thing i love about him. And Kyu~! He's not as musically inclined as Ryeowook is but boy can he sing! Absolute respect for SuJU..! ANd SHINee! SO awesome..

LOL..I have no idea how i went from tears while listening to choir boys to talking so happily about Suju.
You have to believe me!! Just two minutes ago i was crying. Lols.
Ok I'm gonna go check out some more choir boys song to cry again.
Gbye~

2009-12-14T18:37:00.000-08:00

Jonathan, you are right.
I like guys who dance. Which reminds me of the time when i went to the Putrajaya Arts Festival a week ago. There were foreign performers as well as local performers. To my disappointment, there weren't any local guy performing ballet. But there were guys who were dancing contemp. They looked so erm.. emotional? Even the ones who danced the weird plastic bag dance which i do not understand at all. The dance i mean. They just get all emotional and then someone died and then they were tearing off their clothes(plastic bags) and etc etc. Weird dance. Oh but they weren't even really dancing. Just moving and getting emotional.

But the foreign performers.. I really LOVED the one from Ena Ballet Company which is based in Japan. During Concert A the couple performed a very beautiful contem piece.. Very beautiful. In concert B, the couple performed a pas de deux from bluebird. It was OmG. The guy. His jumps were so high and so strong and so wild. And his pirouettes were steady and nice. Very VERY nice to watch.

Guys who dance are cool. It doesn't matter what kind of dance. But i do, have a soft spot for guys who dance ballet. lol..

2009-12-13T06:50:00.000-08:00

Third post today. I'm feeling so active. Hahaha.. actually i just wanted to say something which i've missed out just now. That guy. The attraction-thingy guy. We danced together and our hands touched.. OmG this is so sad. He probably already has a girlfriend and totally forgotten i existed. Sad betul lah. When will i forget him?? Soon i hope. Or else I'll keep on updating this blog. Coz this attraction thingy is making me restless.

2009-12-13T00:22:00.000-08:00

Two words.

MEGA ouch. Mega OUCH.

My muscles. Well its not that painful..considering i know other people experience pain like these on a much greater scale when they first started working out or something.. Thank goodness I had a dance background or else i wouldn't have been able to get out of bed today.

But it is so fun. Not just the attraction thing. Haha.. Its the dance.
Just thinking about dancing gives me the shivers.

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I so LOVE SHINee!! They so rock my world. And Super Junior!!! And SS501!
Suju all the way!
Aigo.. Thinking about suju also gives me the shivers. Thats how much they rock.

Oh.
I've been eating so so much lately.
Chocolates, potato chips, candy, french fries.. etc etc. I love food. I've forgotten how much i love food.. FOOD FOOD FOOD.
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Have no idea why today i wanna say so much.. And they're all completely unrelated.

oooOOooOoh..

And i'm kinda aware that my blog entries are sorta hard to understand since i'm like sorta talking to myself instead of telling ppl what i'm going through, which is what a blog is actually for..

If you find it difficult to understand my blog.. kindly leave a comment in my cbox. LOL..

12 Dec

2009-12-12T19:32:00.000-08:00

Went to a dance workshop.. am supposed to be in the second one right now but my friend's not going so i stayed at home too. Lol..my muscles are a bit sore from the dancing yesterday. Such a satisfying feeling.

Sometimes i wish my blog won't be read by anyone but me and nic t(well actually not many other ppl read it anyway).. then i can pour out my innermost feelings..
Well something happened yesterday during the dance workshop. Since it only happened yesterday, its still fresh in my mind but i'm hoping it'll go away soon. Know what i'm talking about? Haha.. attraction! duh.. not gonna say anything bout it though. Coz we're probably never ever gonna meet again. The word probably shouldn't even be in that sentence. sigh..oh well. That's life and life happens.

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2009-12-02T07:45:00.000-08:00

Lol.. regarding my picture, I am not actually love crazy of course. Just.. random editing. Hahahaha..

I am like a boy..

2009-11-25T23:31:00.000-08:00

Lols.. I'm a certified nut case.

Proof?

The night before the last i couldn't sleep because I was thinking. Lol.. I know a lot of people do that but I kept my eyes open the entire time. For one hour. Which reminds me of time when me and Mr.Cheng had a staring competition. The other day when we were still organizing MP we went to school and for some reason he got really really mad. So we were talking and suddenly we started an unannounced staring competition. So he was like.. talking to me and i was just staring at his eyeballs and he was staring right back at mine and i think we went on staring at each other for at least 30 seconds before he turned away. LOL. Ok.. i sidetracked. As i was saying.. i was awake for so long that my eyes became fully accustomed to the dark that i could go to the toilet without turning on the lights. In fact, my eyes became SO accustomed to the dark that i had to turn on the lights to enable my eyes to get accustomed to the light so that when i turn off the lights it'll be dark and not bright. Lol

And also.. I am like a boy.
Hahaha..
You know how you always hear those jokes about lazy husbands and pushy wife?
It always go like.. the wife pushing the husband to paint the house etc. etc. and the husband never does it and then the wife ends up doing it. I am the husband. I really am. And my dad is the wife. He's been pestering me to clean my study room for weeks till he finally did it himself. I feel bad. Oh well. Hahaha.

to clear some things..

2009-11-23T07:12:00.000-08:00

Ok..
During the MP organizing period.. i've kinda gotten the image of me as a hot head in everyone's mind. I would like to say this once. I AM NOT!!

really!

hahaha.. i don't mind if u cuss me.. or say things to hurt me. I just can't stand it when ppl don't listen to me. or ignore my instructions.. when i only 'instruct' them for them to improve.. in their dance or smtg. Hmmph. Lols..

aish.. this topic is actually very nice. and if i want to i can make a long story out of it but.. i'm so lazy. no one actually reads this blog anyway. so i'll just go straight to the point. i'm not tht bad tempered k? so pls dont act like i'm a bomb about to go off k? lol.

Nicole Lim

2009-11-22T02:19:00.000-08:00

lols.. random title. anyway..
me and my friends went to jj(yawn!!) yesterday..
bought pretty pretty bracelet. so yeppo!!
I don't know why i care for his comments so much.
I like making him happy.
But its not him i like. hmmm.. y ah?
LOLs..

i so like to talk to myself in my blog. ahhh... have to choreograph a group dance for camp belia even though i'm not going(TT.TT i so wanna go!).. lol but it'll be used later on as our star school dance like mamma mia. The song we're using is Indian Boy by MC Mong. Haha.. u guessed right. i chose the song. Some may even think i am koreanizing star's pbsm. hahahahaha.. well if i am it isn't on purpose..really!!

and i'm so addicted to cafe world nowadays.. oh and if u play mafia wars pls add me as mafia member! and neighbour if u play cafe world.. lol betul!

Mp to the power of 3!!

2009-11-17T20:24:00.000-08:00

Lol

Its so surreal.. Everything that we've been working for for the past 4 weeks ended just like that. It seemed so long. That period of 4 weeks. It didn't seem like 4 weeks. More like 4 months maybe. Now that i'm finally able to enjoy my holiday, i can feel the time slipping away from my fingers. I don't want this to happen. I miss going for meetings from morning till night. I miss eating chicken rice and maggi mee goreng everyday. But most of all i'm already missing my BSM friends.. I just saw them two days ago. But i miss them so much because for the past 4 'months' we were always together.. can't wait for us to meet again this thursday for the rehearsal for screen test. Lol

And also.. i really wanna say this.. Suaku'z 09 rocks hard! Super chunted.. i love u guys. because.. if it wasn't for u guys.. i might still be a half dead BSM member and ajk. I'm so thankful to u guys for reviving my semangat! lol.. saranghe!

Stressed beyond anything

2009-11-12T08:57:00.000-08:00

How can u expect me to contain my tears?
How can u be so selfish?

Do u think i WANT to do this?
Do u think i WANT to force u like this?
Do u think i have a choice??

I have my responsibilities..

U don't owe me anything..
So y go??

mayb.. because.. we're friends? And sometimes we have to do things we don't really want to but we have to? Because thts our responsibilities as friends..isn't tht so?

Or.. i'm NOT ur friend?

And.. we're not saints, i know. We sometimes neglect whats right because we just don't feel like doing it. I know.. but should we be THAT blind towards problems especially if we're in a position that can help solve the problem? Especially if it..

Doesn't require you to pay a million dollars.. not even even half a hundred.
Doesn't require you to dedicate your life to it.. or even half a day..
Doesn't require you to convert your religion.. or even a club or society you're in.
Doesn't require you to bring a whole bunch of other ppl with u.

We need..JUST YOU.

It is such a significance difference.

It is.

Really.

stress betul

2009-11-04T07:04:00.000-08:00

i am so stressed...
STRESSED.
and this friday i'll be going to my first add maths tuition class where i will know no one. because its in eng ann and all my friends dun live here where i live.

ps-pls pardon my abbreviations and bad punctuation. i'm too lazy and stressed to care for tht right now

i wan2 be..a musical PRODIGY

2009-11-01T01:52:00.000-07:00

I don't have an ambition yet. Most ppl my age don't. But there are a few things that i wish i could be but which are totally impossible..

Even before watching Beethoven Virus, i've already started watching videos of musical prodigies on youtube. I've always felt a slight pang of jealousy.. But only a tiny bit. I admire these ppl so much. They've never been to a single music class and yet they can tell u what note u are playing without even looking at the keyboard.(and play songs by hearing instead of reading the scores) I've read this mini article in Reader's Digest before about these ppl who can tell the note u are playing without looking. It is apparently a natural in-born ability. To them, it is just as easy as identifying colours! Omg ryte?? How did they get so lucky??

I WANT to be MORE MUSICAL

Please God!

Or at least.. let my children that i will give birth to in the future have that ability!

But most of all.. Let ur will be done.

Amen.

Another thing unrelated to the title.

i am so hengbokhe tht everything was resolved in the end.. even though it is not exactly the end. lols ryte? kurigo.. kopjungmarayo.. i will not give u up again. lols

ps- zien pogoshipoyo! lols

pps- to those who happen to study korean, mianheyo. I know my romanization is way out
and the sentence structure isn't supposed to be like tht but thts what u get when trying
eng and kor in a sentence. once again, chesonghamnida!
ppps- i know to most ppl my last paragraph was complete crap so if u dun understand it,
kuenchana(nvm).. lols!

Have a nice night and a nice day tomorrow and the day after and the day after the day after tomorrow..!

2009-10-30T07:40:00.000-07:00

I'm Coming Clean

2009-10-28T06:01:00.000-07:00

ok.. my semangat to revive my blog has not yet died. But i certainly am annoyed about the whole customizing thing. Its so hard. To me. I know its probably just really simple but i just can't get it to look the way i want it to look. T.T
Help me someone?? okay.. after i post this i will start promoting my blog.. I have got to get over the embarrassment of having what used to be a dead blog.

Moving on.. I rented the DVD Beethoven Virus yesterday night. I thought since I was super busy with the organizing thing I would not have time to watch it so i only rented the first disc. Guess what? I stayed up till 3a.m. And managed to finish the disc by today. Its not that very nice. Beethoven Virus i mean. But i like it a lot. Because its very musical and it sorta inspires me to be a better pianist. And also because the main character is so hot. Like super. I never knew anyone could look that hot in a crew cut. And while playing the trumpet. OMG.. HOT HOT.. Even though the story line is sorta boring and repetitive, I like it a lot. A LOT. And i highly recommend it to anyone who loves music or thinks that playing a musical instrument is easy.

BTW, people who say music is their life. I don't believe them. Most of them. What is music actually...? I don't know about you but I think to say that music is your life is to mean that your life is made up of every type of music. Even classical. But most ppl who have told me that music is their life hardly listen to any songs other than mainstream. To those who don't know, mainstream are music that are always played on the radios.. They only listen to mainstream and nothing else.. I dont have anything against mainstream songs but.. It gets annoying. The same song keeps getting repeated again and again on the radio..

I know i'm just crapping lols.
*-* Signed Nicole....

I'm...back?

2009-10-26T18:46:00.000-07:00

Lols I think I'm back for good.

My best friend constantly updates her blog and yet OMG..my previous post was on March. I've been so embarrassed every time my friends told me they've been to my dead blog. And well... PMR's over and i guess i could try posting something every few days. Then i'll have to ask my friend how to customize my blog. Oh and have u realised my blog was mainly about how i wanted to revive my blog but couldn't due to my laziness?? Lols... And the whole point about having a blog is to share what's on with your life ryte? So... here goes..

A few months ago( I think..it was a few weeks before PMR)
I got chosen to be the organizing chairman of an upcoming event by my school's BSMM
I'm so thankful my seniors gave me this opportunity. Especially since I was not exactly the most
DEDICATED junior last year. I guess i sorta revived this year. Maybe. And omg.. its so cool.
To organize an event! It was stressing in the beginning because we couldn't find a venue. We went
everywhere; Crystal Crown, Hin Hua, Lourdes Church, etc etc and even went all the way to Port Klang! But finally.. not long ago ( yes we got the venue very late) we finally found a venue
that was perfect!! We were soooooooooo happy. It was like a God sent gift to us. Hehe.

Erm so guys.. if u happen to be reading this ( i know no one does so i'm gonna customize my blog and start promoting it so that there'll be ppl reading this) and is a high school student of any school in Klang and is in BSSM, you can contact your KUS and tell them you wanna come! Its only RM15 and its gonna be in Wisma Ng Teng Chin from 6 to 10 pm. LOL.

Updates on my lif3 since March-
- honestly i don't remember. serves me right. i should've written a blog then i could look at all my post and reminisce about the past
-I DO know that I took my Grade 7 exam in ballet this year and my Grade 5(i started in form 1) exam in piano. Well I got distinction for my ballet but for my piano.... sobs. It was 2 freaking marks away from distinction. And all because of my stupid mistake. I stopped playing for 3 seconds halfway through the songs... Twice! It happened TWICE .. so.. TWO marks gone!! I could've gotten a distinction.. sobs sobs sobs.
- hmmm... i got a new phone coz my old phone was breaking apart. i'm not exactly the world's best phone user
-er.. er.. I STILL love korea and all things Korean. Haha!
- well PMR lah! Evryone in Malaysia (my age) took PMR

okay.. i STILL dont know how to end a blog. so er.. eh bye?

Hols..

2009-06-03T18:00:00.000-07:00

I know in my previous blog i was happily exclaiming how i am gonna 'revive' my blog and then totally going into the i-dont-have-a-blog mode. Which just shows what a procrastinator i am. I was completely aghast when someone told me he saw my blog. I was like.. You mean there are PEOPLE who know of the existence of my blog??? I created this blog without intending to let people know about it ( except my bestie Nicole who, totally has a blog worth knowing about, unlike mine) Anyways.. I've been getting this voice thingy in head these few days, asking me to post something before someone i know visits my half dead blog. But now that I'm actually sitting here and typing, i feel like i could go on...and on... and on..

BUT i won't. Coz i'm too lazy. So...hmmm..ok... Holidays. Don't you always notice something after the holidays? For those constant weight watchers i'm sure you have. For those who think that the weighing machine is a erm.. an evil item..etc etc.. Don't you feel erm full? In your usually roomy jeans? Those mamak stalls should be closed during the hols i tell you. They're so open and inviting.. and we innocent people are victims to their food which comes with a generous amount of oil. Actually i'm no expert to this matter. What actually causes a person to get fat? Is it carbohydrates? Coz i hear people complaining about carbs a lot. So what is carbs?

tsk tsk.. i crap talk so much. And i was obviously joking about the mamak stalls thingy. It is we humans that are so vulnerable to good food. Not the mamak stalls fault whatsoever. Okay.. my laziness has overcome me. Farewell..

Ps- you probably won't hear from me till next month

Hols..

2009-06-03T17:52:00.000-07:00

I know in the previous blog i said i would 'revive' my blog but that just shows what a procrastinator i am. I was completely aghast when someone told me he saw my blog. I was like.. You mean there are actually PEOPLE who read my blog??? I had created this blog only for the fun of it, never intending to update it. Which is why i had never asked anyone to come visit my blog. Anyways, for some reason, there's this voice in my head who keeps asking me to post something

Fading Stars..

2009-03-22T04:52:00.001-07:00

I gotta admit..
I like male singers who can sing like a girl(as in pitch). I recently got addicted to this song called Fading Stars , sung by an awesome singer who can reach high as well as low notes.

So Long...!

2009-03-08T01:20:00.000-08:00

Greetings...

Its been soooo long. Looking at me best buddie's blog made me want to revive this one i have.. Lol.
Okay.. For those who know me (actually anyone who has facebook and is my friend in facebook)..

They know tht during the past few months I
-ermmm have been very crazy about KOREA!!!!!!!!!!
-i seriously love Korea
-i want to be a Korean

If you're thinking "... ughh..another girl fantasizing about being a korean just because she had watch one too many korean drama... " then i'm very sorry to say that you're sadly mistaken.
But.. If you're thinking "... ahhh.. a very passionate girl who loves another country because she loves their culture, people, food.. wow.. it is such a tragic twist of fate that she was not born in that country to two loving parents who would later on name her Kim/Park Lin Lee(random Korean name) ..." then you ought to give yourself a pat in the back..

SERIOUSLY
I am 15 already and am living in Malaysia. Though i love my own country.. it is my dream to someday go to the place my heart yearns for.. (ok fine. i'll stop being dramatic now). So.... hehehe. I am learning Korean!!

If you're korean and am reading this blog.. think, before you go to sleep tonight. Be grateful, for you are born a Korean, and shall live as a Korean.

love...
Kim/Park Lin Lee..
(a.k.a. Nicole Lim)

Compliments..

2008-10-04T06:30:00.000-07:00

Compliments are like gifts.
But they're so complicated.
If someone compliment me, I'd be glad.
Of course!
But...What does a person actually do when he/she receives a compliment??

To thank the person who complimented me would be like agreeing with whatever he/she had just said..
And thats so perasaan!

How about disagreeing? And that would be plain rude... What me and Christina did was to sign an agreement to never push the compliments that we gave each other.

And it actually works.. tht way, its like.. even though we don't disagree, we still don't necessarily agree.. and if we secretly agree.. there's no need to say it loud now, is there?

UPDATES ON MY LIFE

Okay.. its a Saturday and I'm supposed to be in ballet from 1.30 to 6.15 but went shopping instead. It doesn't really matter cause I've already done my inter foundation examination. And after my inter found class there's this Malay dance rehearsal. Which i absolutely loathe! But i cut short my shopping trip anyway.. To make it to ballet by 5 o clock because thats when my grade 7 class start. Its the sole reason i drag myself to the studio every Saturday. And they canceled it! So there i was.. back from my trip to mid valley because of grade 7 and they've not only canceled the class..I've to go through the torturous Malay dance rehearsal. Lousy??

Luckily Famous Amos created the special recipe years ago to make little girls like me happier.
And load on the fat.
Whatever..
I'll work it off tomorrow in the stupid Malay dance rehearsal.

Thank goodness its the last one. The last sodding rehearsal.

Ps- I can see now my feeble attempt of a first post has failed. Miserably. Wait.. that doesn't sound grammatically correct. Too bad they haven't invented a grammar check to go along with the spelling check that i rely on so much..

First Post

2008-10-02T09:32:00.000-07:00

I've always wanted to have a blog but didn't have the guts.. but turns out my friend had always wanted one too so we're in this together. I've always imagined a blog is like a diary..only everyone can see it. I've never succeeded in writing a diary. I don't think its possible to have a diary.. only fictional characters like Princess Mia could write so much. And maybe those girls who lived way back in time. But its the 21st century..and seriously, with so many things (facebook , friendster , horror movies...etc) who can pick up a pen and write what happened at work/school today. In those story books their life seems miserable and frustrating. And if I were them, i'd spend my free time reading a book instead of actually WRITING a book.

Oh I've tried...believe me.I ended up wasting 1 hour and all i've written is well...okay. can't say that. It IS supposed to be my diary. LOls..gotta sleep now. Bye. love you, ntsh! i know you'll be reading this. Perhaps the only one. ^^